Hey there sweetie, just checking in with you. It’s been nearly a month and the pain of your passing hasn’t got any better, it’s just got easier to handle. I don’t know when I will be able to feel normal again. I feel so incredibly alone without you, I have no one to talk to and I’m so stuck right now, I honestly can’t see anyway out of it. I miss running to your house when things got shit or calling you and just having a good cry/rant. I miss you calling me and telling me how you were feeling, made me feel like I was of some use, I liked that you trusted me enough to come to me when you weren’t feeling all fine ‘n’ dandy. Your pictures up on my wall and I love seeing your cheeky little smile when I look at it in the morning, makes me feel a little better. Thats how I will forever remember you, with that grin on your face.

I hope your doing okay and that your still looking out for me like you always have, needing your help so much now baby. I promise I’ll forever still be looking out for you.

I miss you darling, I love you so much <3